Scary night ~~~

Hmmm ... last night is a scary night for me but luckily stupid woei ling is beside me
if not I don't know what will happen if he din't exchange driver with me ... thanks alot
haha .. i owe u 1 lunch ~~~ ish !!!! fine just a lunch only
haha

ish ~~~

why thing always goes like this ?

that not what i want ...

why the most i care the person the more misunderstood between us

why the most i worried about that person the more tease from her

why when i need a person be my side but nobody can do that

why I din't do anything to those people but they still want backstab me and talk bad behind me

why you can't understand me ?

why you can't be my side when i was sad

just let me share out my nonsense

no need you say anything just sit at there

but you can't ..

just awhile u also don't want ...

I just need have a break ... why you all can't understand me

Nobody believe with what I said

rofl that is a very funny thing ..

that was my life

I'm always be alone

anytime anywhere

just take it ba

P/S : Good night and sweet dreams .

Hugs and muaks

To : Chun N

nightmare

I had a nightmare last night ... ish ...
that means I can't sleep for whole night ... thanks to you
last night ... I dreams about something I'm not happy and something horible ...
its fearful !!!
So last night for the whole night i can't sleep at all
i sit on the chair for the whole night ... ish ~
and today my mood was very very bad
easy to get mad and tired ...
I think I crazy already cause I can quarrel with someone with no reason
hmm ...
so here just want to say sorry to that person
' sorry , today is my fault '

hope tomorrow turn out to be better than today....
hope my problem will be control by myself ...
hope everything went on smoothly...
hope ... hope ... hope ...

someone molest me !!!

That is on last friday I still remember that day cause someone is molest me !!!
sob ~~ sob ~~ . but what happens on that day ? hmm ...
Its happens at 4pm cause I need fetch WL go pragin cause he and I want buy something .
so when on the way to pragin mall WL started ' ki hiao ' already . he start put his head on my shoulder and our conversation is like that
I said : what happen with you ? why you lie on my shoulder ? Its very disgusting you know ?
WL : Mmm~~ feel so comfortable when lying on ur shoulder .. I want hug you can ? Its not disgusting ok ? is enjoy ~ so now i'm enjoy myself
I said : hmm~~~ before you hug me got something need to advise you first .
WL : ?
I said : if you don't want die or neck broken I think u better move away ur STUPID PIG HEAD
WL : i'm so scare !!! when i scare I must hug something !!!
Then Wl start hug me again ...
I said : Don't hug me !!! later people though I'm a gay !!!
WL : I don't mind ~~
I said : but i mind .. don't hug me I tell you
then WL becomes more over already ... he started rub my leg slowly ... argh!!!
I said : Stop !!! Stop !!! sorry ~~~
WL : Hohohohoho ~~ so happy today cause you fetch me ... hohohoho ~~~
I said : You better don't fetch me I tell you
WL : Don't worry , if i want fetch you I sure won't use bike anymore i use car ~ hohoho~~~

P/S : WL becareful !!! don't fetch me by bike if not i will let you regret for what you did to me on that day !!!

sad

Argh ~~~ feel so sad

feel need someone can let me share something but now i realized .. no one can let me do that
hmm ... feel lonely anytime .

who ? who ? who can by my side and listen to my nonsense ? ya , maybe got .. but it just happen in my dream ..

why ? why? why no one can understand me ? ya , maybe got .. but it also happen inmy dream only ..

In real life no one can and no one want to try ...

cause they all think Im just talk crap and nonsense ....

Tone ~~~ tone ~~~ tone ~~~

This 2 days >> wednesday and thursday
can say is weird day for me and also woei ling but maybe woei ling don't think about it
cause he is quite enjoy it .. haha . No comment i also very enjoy it but happen in this 2 days ?
we met 2 weird uncle !!! haha ~~~ 1 I called him Mr Tone ~~ another 1 he ald intro to us he called Tonny ... because of Mr Tone now in front of me >> woei ling keep saying ' we must have tone , tone ~~~ tone ~~~ where is your tone ? show me !!! show me !!! ' haiz ~~ not only him
cause i also treat same thing to him ... lolz
and yesterday ... in our static class one of the indian guy do something stupid in our class .. and that he also make me laugh for whole class ... what he did is when out lecturer come into class
and he shout : ‘ 老师 ，eh ya tot ’ mandarine + hok kien ... but the lecturer smile at him ... shit !!!
ok , talk about today ... Tonny , the people who can see our future ... ya , first round we find reason run away from him ... why ? cause we never prepare anything . Second round we go back there to try to meet him again . why? cause we already prepared many many stupid + weird question to ask him ... and the question we already think it for 1 HOUR !!! but he ' ran away ' already ... someone tells us he go for lunch ... haiz . but nevermind we still got alot of change to meet him .. haha
then i tell woei ling : ' ooi ling ling , maybe he see his future about how he die '
woei ling : ' what ? '
I said : ' he know he will die in the question that we want ask just now so he run away liao '
woei ling : ' agree , cause we too pro ~~~ liao '
haha , woei ling your very naughty ... but cannot blame you cause I also same with you
HOHOHOHOHOHO ~~~~

no more sorry

Last saturday go celebrate the birthday with my friend from National Service
haiz ... bad day ~~ why ? cause someone is going also and all of my friends asked me say sorry to her ... why? thanks to her backstab .. what she did become to be my fault ... all my fault ... haha
funny right ? hmm ... ok fine then . to show that i'm gentle so I plan to say sorry to her
but that ' bitch ' !!! why i called her ' bitch '? and why I so stupid go plan to say sorry to her ? long story behind ... Tell u dude ... no more !!! no more !!! I also want thanks to woei ling ...
haha why ? because of your call so that i got excuses to run away from the RED CAFE
haha ... sorry to you the birthday girl ... so actually today is your birthday so i just can say happt birthday to you d cause I really really don't want to see that ' bitch ' she is too bitchy enough that day somemore today still need to see her ? oh my god ~~ no thanks d
haha ... that day story is too long ... somemore when i run away from there got something happened ... hmmm .... don't want talk about it la
just forget it ... haiz

weird uncle 怪叔叔

forgot which day but I still remember this happened in this week
that day I went to buy a pair of shoes
hmm ... when I walk in to the shop the seller is follow me
I thought he want to recomment any shoes to me but I'm wrong cause he is not !!
when I take the shoes and have a look on it
he suddently said : ' izit got a girl confess to you when ur form 3 ? '
i was shocked then turn my head look around ... cause I remember nobody in d shop since I go in to the shop and after i came in except the seller . Don't scare me ok? chinese ghost festival still not yet reach ( donu the actual name )
then he said : ' no need look around I was talking to you '
' oO , ok ' I said
' you still not yet answer myquestion oO and when you form 5 like a girl bt failed to confess right ?' he continue asking me the weird question .
' ya , can say so la ' i was cincai answer his question but what he said is abit true which part ? I not going to tell :P
ya , he is a weird uncle ... cause he keep asking me question non stop untill i paid the money before i leave his shop he still want to ask me question but the question he asked damn accurancy ... and damn funny ...
just lazy taip here ... haha

at the end , i wan say congrat to my friend : taryn and woei ling
cause they pass the T5 paper !!!
hmm ... woei ling was damn high cause he keep shout ' hoooray ~~ i passed !!! i passed !!! wow ~~~ ' when i fetched his go celebrate ... lolz . then he keep saying ' ah neng ah neng i passed leh , see i said i will 70++ nw i really get it , wakakakaka ' =.="
then i answered ' yala yala but if u continue shout nonstop and disturb me i will throw you out from my seat ... ' but he don't care just keep continue shout ... untill all the people look at us ...
haiz ~~

lolz ...

Tuesday , me and woei ling went to gurney cause woei ling want go buy present for someone and i also want go check up the price for some stuff ...
after check all the thing we want then we go to the last floor ( celebrity fitness ) to ask for a nice price but actually I just want to enlarge the date for my free pass
So when come in inside shan was shock and said ' wow .. see Mr Tan i knoe you are interesting on it right ? ' then I said ' Haha . maybe if the price is nice '
then Shan said ' don't worry , coome sit here i will offer you a nice price but before that can you tell me how much is your budget ? ' then i show my serious face to him ' if cab get about Rm70-80 then i will seriously think about it '
Shan said ' erm .. it abit hard but i can offer you a price Rm99 that my special price only for you '
but woei ling use his stupid hand to close his mouth and i know he is laugh .. kill you man !!!
the woei ling said ' can I have a look here ? '
' sure ' shan said ...

after have a look around there ... feel .. wow amazing man ... gt nice view , sauna room , steam room ... not only this still got alot alot thing inside . Both of us abit attracted but the problem is the price so we tells Shan ' we will tell you tomorrow ' then we leave there ...
woei ling tell me ' if the price is Rm 50 i will directly sign the 2 years contract with him ' i also agree with that ... and woei ling also said ' already here liao why not we go play the KOf ? '
then i said ' Hahaha , i know you '

so we just walk to there but when reach we saw someone ...
hmmm ... fine la since here already so do what we plan but after this I get suspended with ...

next story
1 .i found that Sharon hav just broken up with her boyfriend even she said she is ok but i knew she is not ... cause i know her alot

2 . I found that Disted student is brave and ' yeng ' . why ? cause he can scold lecturer ' fuck you !!!! ' in front of people and the lecturer then straight walk out from the class
amazing right ?

3 . someone tell s me a story about a how a guy chasing the girl by using some funny thing . sorry i cannot tell u all here cause that is people privacy so shhhh .... but it really funny and make me laugh for whole day ... Hahaha

I think i better stop here cause the librarian use his stupid eyes stare at me ald

judge

Alot of thing happened this few month since ... i forget already
Aargh ~~~ just forget it ... don't want to remember it again also
Today also the same keep on quarrelling with me
Ish ~~ why can't hang nicely ? And talk nicely without quarrelling ?
but then you always said I'm judge you ... what is the term of judge ?
For me its just something depends on the receiver/reader
By the way , that person send you a messenge and he is judging you
but when you read the messenge you don't feel that he is judge you
Same way , a person just simply send send you a messenge just for figure out something
but after you read the messenge you feel that he is judging you ... but the truth is not
So , who can tell me what is d term of judge ?
can anyone tell me ?
nobody can tell you
cause its just depends on how you think about that person
If in your mind he is just a person who always like to judge people then how much he say and how many messenge he send you just will feel that he is judge you . Its maybe because of somebody or something happened makes you feels I'm that kind of people
Hmmm .... but I don't want care about this anymore cause for you I'm this kind of people
and if I explain more just makes out more misstake and you also don't believe me anymore so how much i explain how much i prove for you ... just a excuses for myself

somebody tells me a story about ' limited edition gundum '
haha , its was damn funny and make me laugh for whole day
what story ? hmmm ... will post it when my mood turn to be better


我就是那么简单
一句话
就能让我高兴整天。。
so why you don't know me at all ?

bull shit

No more pretending
No more fake
No more backstab
No more quarrelling
No more irritate messages
No more lame strangers
I had closed my Shoutmix.
just stop with this bull shit
At a moment , i wish to be a father in a church ...
lolz ... amazing right ?
what reason ? shhhh ... cannot tell you ...
nobody will know but maybe got a people know the ans ... lolz ~~~

Transformer

Yesterday I went to Gurney alone watched this movie 'Transformer' alone ( always like that ).
mayb is too late but i don't care . Well , before that I as met weoi ling at somewhere and do something .... shhhh .... secret cannot tell .. sorry ya . Actually before that I did not plan to watched it cause I was thinking to have my lunch there and arcade >.<" but too boring so straight go buy the ticket and go watch the movie with the empty stomach .

ｔｈｅ　ｍｏｖｉｅ　ｉｓ　ｎot bad ，Ｉ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｉｔ．
ｔｈｅ　ａｃｔｉｏｎｓ　ａｒｅ　not bad also 　ａｎｄ　ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｆｕｎｎy ！！！！

The full power Optimus Prime and The cute one Bumblebee

i prefer this

love ^^

人生有很多个阶段

我们会因为一个缘分

而聚在一起

但是我们也会因为一个努力

一个目标或是另一个机会而分开

不过一定要记住

你心中有我，我心中有你

记得每一次的分开

就是为了准备下一次的见面!!! ^^

而我一直相信我们会在某处再次牵手在一起

lolz

haha ~~~

yesterday damn boring stay at home so asked weoi ling out for ' flying ' ^^

hmm ... we chit-chat over there for 2hour

after ' flying ' me and woei ling go msd cause of some reason

but

woei ling nearly lost his wallet in mcd !!!

lucky , that time all people in mcd are blind ;P

cause can't see woei ling wallet put on the table with nice position

ish ~~~

amazing word

Can you read this?

Not possible to read anything?

then follow the guidelines given below
Close your eyes almost 90%

so that you can actually read it..

(BAD EYES)

StOrY ~~~

I don't know who's the cause of it, a conspiracy of destiny?

or what did I do that made you leave.People who love each other so much,

has to be separated away from one another.
I'm only human, how am I suppose to bear with it?

I don't know what to do, it's like my heart is breaking.

Life seems to be isolated and everything seems to be deserted.

It's like a lonely person being stuck in the past.

I want you to know how sad and heartbroken I am.

My heart belongs to you, no matter how long it's gonna be,

and it shall be yours forever.

My whole heart belongs to you alone,

I will wait for you and love you until the day I die.

I don't know what's the reason behind it, the skies above did it with a purpose?

or was it someone who made us be far away from each other. It's too cruel,

I was never prepared to lose you like today.

hate !!!

medicine !!! medicine !!! medicine !!!

I hate medicine !!!

punishment

You try harder to get what you want, Betray, sacrifice & humiliate someone to get better,

Lastly you'll get nothing from all of it.

If you done something let people hurt, you'll get punish, don't be silly that hope you won't get revenge cause after you did it, it will come faster.

blame

Get off!!!!
I am tired with those rubbish!!

Killing my excellent mood~

Wasting my time.

Rubbish up my life!!

Dislike me??

Then move on. No need to backstab me

out from my life

It wont hurt much or maybe can say it wont hurt at all.

............................................................................................................................................................................

I blame You.

You don really care bout me much.

Even I spread out my love but you still cant see.

I blame You.

You Never know what I want.

I blame You.

You know what I am thinking about

but you keep on going with those I want.

You hurt me much but I still love you.

I blame You.

You are just who I need,

but you never know what I need from you.

I blame You.

With a simple care, makes my life confuse.

But you just walked away.

Mostly I blame Myself.

I am not stronger enough,

if not I wont get hurt.

( old post , just change abit )

Much more friend I would love.

As long as you treat me good.

Friends wont forever,but we can make it as long as we could.

Family, just appear in this life. After dead? I don't know.

So love them more then yourself.

moreover , we are still alive so why we can't give a chance to each other ?

people may change

but not in one minute , one hour or in one day

people may change

but is in minute by minute

in day by day ...

Everything thinks in many ways, the minimum was two ways.

One is the best way and One is the worst way.

That's what peoples said Positive and Negative.

Some times I would think, why do those peoples like to think Negative ways to hurt themself?Maybe they couldn't get enough hurt .

'I Love You, You Love Me.

We are Happy Family.

With a Great Big Hug & A Kiss from Me to You.
Won't You say' You Love Me too?

(Did You know what it means?) I just realize what it means.

changeling

On the way turn into next semester, I am now changing. Changing to treat nice people good and ignore those who makes me fed up. Changing my out look. Changing everything. Just for somebody who just will remember about my pass and don't want to let it go and somebody told me something she said ' pass makes today ' actually i agree with it but it still is the pass and for to still remember for it ? right ? Pass just let it be and just let it be our history that all ... don't live in our pass like that we will be more happy , isn't ?

Well, I'm not a kids anymore and I know whether what are good or bad. Study and revise are the things that's important to me now . Must be positive, seriously I'm kinda not happy now with somebody who I treat him nice and good but he betray me and backstab me so start from now I'll just ignore him forever . For those things that makes me worry or tired, I'll just ignore cause it doesn't help me or make me happy.So~ just stop it, for serious it won't make any benefit if u make me mad but i won't end up our friendship cause no point for it ... For somebody who trust him just go ahead cause I don't want to care anymore. You want it just take it, no more quarrel no more wrangle.

Exam is around the corner I just want concentrate on it but now I'm not in exam mood so just prepare to die .

垃圾！！！

有些人往往就是这么的只以为是。自以为自己很聪明很高尚到可以把人分等级。
那你又是哪个等级的呢？需要照照一下镜子吗？白痴 !!!你自己是哪根葱？
竟然还敢跟我讲会降级贬低身份 。。。你以为你是谁？你也还不是和我一样
会流血，会痛，会死的人类罢了。会说这种话的人智商也不会高到哪里。。人品也不会好到哪里
对我来说这种人在我的世界里只能用垃圾来形容，相信他说话的人连垃圾都不如 。
即使你再聪明再能干垃圾永远都是垃圾。不怕老实说我智商不是很高，人品也不是很好
但绝对比你好至少我不会将人列为能分等级的动物 。

...

war ~war ~war ~

war again

haiz ..

can stop ?
i hop not to continue anymore ...

just stop

please ~ i say ' please '

when the war can stop ?

now ? tomorrow ?

or cannnot forever ?

『 破碎 』 之星

我爱你，我最爱的女孩

望着满天星

两颗小行星在那闪烁

是缘分的牵连? 是命运的考验?

我不想躲也不想避

因为我知道结局不能改

∝╬══→　（ 上天让我遇见我心目中的完美女孩 ，因为它知道我会爱上她的一切）

我喜欢你躺在我胸前

你会静静聆听我的心跳

我喜欢你望着我的眼神

喜欢看着你的笑脸

它总会把我从冬天

拉回春天喜欢你的撒娇

你总能让我把视线百分百的专注在你身上

你总让我更在乎你多过我自己

∝╬══→　（我喜欢你的一切，喜欢你muakzz我的那一刻，喜欢你骂我坏蛋的那一刻。。。我更爱上你的一切，爱上你的笑容，爱上你的。。。）

那一次在海边

你靠在我的肩膀

听我哼着歌

当时的涨潮变成退潮

从夕阳变成满天星当空

咻咻咻

送上我的吻

街边路灯一整排

低着头亮起了灯

记得某次的某次

你拥抱着我许久许久都不肯放开

∝╬══→　（ 这是浪漫吗？不是。。。而是我真心对你表达爱的方式。。。在我的爱情字典里没有浪漫这两个字，只有真心这字眼 ）

走过我们的甜美回忆

每一个空间

每一个时间

每一个地点

怎样面对你的笑颜

怎样面对你的泪滴

∝╬══→　 （ 爱不是坚强不是自私更不是痛苦。。。真正的甜蜜不是只有笑不是哭而是我们一路走来的甜酸苦，这才是真正的甜蜜真正的爱情）

过后的日子

你的笑颜

在我的世界里逐日减少

每次分开都会带着一份依依不舍

只能苦苦等待下一次的相逢

不过我们知道我们的爱

不会因为等待而减少

而是一天比一天来得深

∝╬══→　 （ 真爱能等待，能分享，能改变你，能了解，能依靠，能珍惜，能信任，能永远一辈子 ）

故事的最后，

在爱情的世界里

什么都不怕

只因为你

只懂我的心会一直等待你

等待我们再一次的相遇

∝╬══→　 （ 我爱你 ，因为在爱情的沙滩上，只能有一双脚步。。。男孩，女孩漫步。另一伴，在背后，抱着你）

my life

I'm really tired..
Miss for no reason... Wait for no reason..
Is the time i have to change..
Forgot about the bad things and look forward.Tomorrow will be a better day.Rainy day will pass and the sun will shine soon!
Its easy to think but not easy to take action
Haha..Someone told me that..Life sure got sadness,it won't be happy everyday.
Now,i just need concentrate to someone?Guess who?
Are this the correct way i choose?I think so..how to be happy with my life.?That's the problem..Give up everything?Seriously,are this the only way i can choose?..
sorry i won't cause i'm d person who won't give up so easy ...
Really sorry to someone ..already forget how many times i hurt this person .. Again and again..
SORRY!I'm a bad guy right? hmm.. think so.
How can my life be like this?I did wrong thing again..please forgive me!

something you do well

Focus on something that you do well and find a way to do it even better.
The substance of value that you create is never wasted.
Choose something that you do well and find a way to make the fruits of yourefforts available to those around you.
By providing real value to others, you expand the treasures in your own life.
Take something you do well and find a way to make it enjoyable.
The more you enjoy what you’re doing, the more effective you’ll be.
Find something you do well and teach it to others.
The more you can duplicate your efforts, the more value there is for everyone.
Look at something you do well and consider the real, lasting sense offulfillment it can bring.
Remember that life is about making a difference.
The things you do well provide you with the opportunity to give of yourselfin real and meaningful ways.
That’s an opportunity you don’t want to miss.

~cheers~

P/S: disappointed to all of you already .you believe him but just don't want to believe me

feel sad ~~

tired ~~ tired ~~ tired ~~

From saturday to wednesday, means last week + this half week , same as usual went to school.

Nothing special cause student life is always the same.

Something happen but just don't wan to bother and talk abut it anymore.

just try to forget it and turn myself back like last time

try !!! try !!! try !!!

While we chit-chat about how to chasing girl

wow ~~~ man

fantastic right ? lolz ...

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These few days my phone was very silent, no ranging because i quarrel with her ... >.<

Before I went out for redboxto celebrate my b'day party i was hope that I can see someone that I hope to see and celebrate my b'day with me together but i knew that its wont happens . Things always comes with like this when you wish to,

then you wont get it;

when you are not, then it will appear

So just.......nothing la.

I make myself brave to try to sang in front of everyone

曾经

5月3日耶！ 5月3日耶！
什么日子 ？其实我已经。。。忘记了
如果不是手机在我睡得最甜的时候把我吵醒
‘ 一周年！一周年！一周年！ ’
手机是这么写的 。。。
干 ， 希望它吵的时候就整天 ‘ emeg call only ’
真够性格 。。。
好了，离题了。回来回来 。
都一年了，在我印象里我好像将它给删了 。
算了 ，都散了还来什么一周年

如果真的可以
我好想好想好想回到过去
回到还能紧紧抱着你的时候 。。。
因为你总会为我的付出为我疼惜

我的眼睛看过你无数次的难过
我的手也曾为你停留好几次的眼泪
你喜欢靠在我的肩膀
你曾经对我说我的肩膀时你最安全的依靠 ，
（ 但 。。。 那已经是过去了 ）

曾经我真的很难受
难受我们明明那么靠近
距离却大的离谱
其实
我并不想放弃你
因为对于我来说你是我最重要的回忆
我的快乐都在你那里
我不想我的唯一就只剩下孤独

（ 原来 ，我的回忆都只是曾经所后悔的一切 ）

Pissed off ~~ arrrgh

These few days something happened among us. So how bout you think??

( To those who know all these )

Erm..Let see, I am trying not to involve start from THIS moment.

I like what I like,

it means those I don like I will just keep on going my life won't stop at the moment.

Not much time for me now

Something happens just now

Arrrgh ...

pissed off ~~~

~ cross finger ~

something

the latest me

Something had happened between these few days.

Something that makes me tired,

something that makes me feel sad or bad,

something that makes me scared,

something that makes me happy,

something that makes me surprise

and ...

something that makes me worried.

i'am not happy at all

my life like shit !!!!

是吗?

一个人的孤单不好受 ，活了十九年
真正让我感到快乐的事什么时候?
好像不曾拥有过
为什么 ‘ 我们 ’ 会分手 ？
是因为我不好吗 ？
也许是真的吧 。。。
可能你说得对
跟我聊天很难受
还是别聊的好
既然你都不相信我
我们还有聊天的余地吗？
你心里对我的不信任只会拉远我们之间的距离
不是吗 ？
为什么背叛 ， 利用， 不信任，伪装 一直一直会环绕着我 ？
为什么常觉得自己一个人会比较有安全感 。。。
我这十九年是靠什么活下来的？

ish ...

几时才可以再说一次'我爱你

When can I say I Love You to You again

Now... my feeling was quite down,

I feel I am no longer a good friend nor they were.

Well, just passenger...who cares.

I am..So I am a fool!!

But when could I tell you that I still love you, I still need you.

Maybe no more, if I tell you, it also just not for all.

i'll get upset or angry ina sudden .

i can also start a fight with you at anytime if you wish to

ish ...

tired

i'm sick..headache and fever

i'm tired..

non-stop bz wif my stuff

i'm lonely..

my pc haven't back yet

no worried..won't contact anyone anymore

cuz i need rest ,i'm really tired

gt someone in my heart..bt for her maybe is empty

bt i still need 2 move on

family and friends are important to me..

i can't alive without friends and family but can without lover

don't know what i'm talking about

abit crazy ald

speechless

i'm really tired

need rest

nite..

预告 ！！！

接下来的文章将会是有史以来我用最长的时间来完成的哦

人生

我们总是在这世界上 ， 找寻着与我们 ‘ 连结 ’的另一个人

不同的连结方式包含着不同的意思然而连结的方式也有很多很多种 ，

有的连结是陪伴 ，有的连结是一种相互取暖 ，有的则是包含的一种淡淡的默契 ，却又有一些连结则是一种安慰 。。。

但是 ，透过爱情的联结的伴侣是我们所向往的另一段故事了

世上没有所谓的 ‘ 意外 ’性的偶遇就只有 ‘ 绝对 ’性的缘分

一年前 ，我一直天真的认为你就是我要找的女主角 ，原来，不是

你 ，只是我生命中的一部小插曲 。 一个教我不要这么天真的小插曲

因为，你只是我故事里的女配角而已 ，可能这么说会有些残忍不过事实就是事实 。 也因为这故事的结尾 ，让我堕落了好一段时间 。让身为故事里的男主角 ---> 我 ，跌倒了 。

说好不好，正当堕落的期间。‘ 你 ’闯入了我的世界 。那时的我觉得‘ 你 ’ 会是她的代替品吗 ？对 ， 当时的我是这么的想 ，但在发生某些事后原来我错了 。原来 ， 我是真的在乎你 。用心的在乎 。

我不管别人的冷言冷语因为只要我喜欢就对了 。

没错，我就是这样的一个人 。

只要我觉得对就会用心的去做 。

即使失败只要我的那颗心还在的话 ，我不会放弃 。

i still miss you

i still miss you !!!!

by :chun

绝对冰结 『 冰结の心』

酷吧 。。。对就喜欢耍酷 。 想守护却守护不到东西 ，即使再怎么努力都不会属于你 。
一句话形容这种人 ∝╬══→ 失败者 ∝╬══→ 我
做做毫无感情的四脚爬爬 ∝╬══→ 我
人没了心不能活但还好没了感情还能活
phew ~~ 我是一个孤单的人就这样 。
不会有人喜欢 ， 不会有人爱 。。。
从小到大都是 ，永远都是 。
以前是，现在是，以后也是 。
找一个喜欢的人 ，不难
寻一个喜欢你的人 ，容易
找一个你喜欢他 ， 他也喜欢你的人 ，真的好难
我呢 。。。
找一个喜欢的人，不难
寻一个喜欢你的人，很难
找一个你喜欢他， 他也喜欢你的人 ， 真是难上加难
我不需要人来同情 ，我会干掉他/她 。 小心别惹火我

现在的我 ，同样一无所有负债累累 。
我没怨言 ，因为这是我自愿 。

干掉他吧 ！！！ come on

奇怪为何我会放这张照片吧。。。不错，我是被一个白木吓到了。

一个会把笑话变冷的人没见过吧 。

一个能让我笑爆肚子的笑话从他嘴巴说出来竟然让我一点反应都没有而且还能让我流汗 ，他果然比我还猛！！我欣赏他 ，他是一条猛汉 。 不过，最令我欣赏他的还是他知道他没有说笑话的天分还不断的拼命说 ，是个狠角色 。 在他的世界里只有两种女生 ：第一种是 自己的家人还是亲戚 第二种呢就是和他同班还是和他曾经同班过的女生 。 够吊了吧 ，我不干的东西他一律替我干掉了 。 狠到不行的家伙。

说回我自己吧 ，假期很不爽。整天就只有工作还是工作 。

我工作的 ‘ manyzer ’ 竟然是基佬而且还是一个抢手 。背后射了我一枪还我死于非命到现在才知道我中抢了。棒透了！！！不过，他也好不到哪里，他也被干掉了。 不是被人而是被钱给‘ 做 ’掉的 。

人就是这样的。不是被钱给干掉就是被感情给‘ 做 ’到 ， 就这么的简单 。 不是么？

自称德高望重？放屁 !!!

别惹我

星期五 （ 28/2 ）

别惹我 !!! 真的别惹我 !!!
不相信可以试试看的
我全身充满杀气 ，如果你敢惹我看我把不把你给‘ 杀 ’了
我这整个月心情完全不能平复从没有过的感觉所以识趣的应该知道要怎么做吧 。。。
因为连我自己都不懂会发生什么事 。。。谁遭殃的话就不好意识了

好像从来没发生过这样的事
一直以来我脾气都是很好的 ，很少发脾气 。。发脾气的次数十只手指算得完，不必十只啦五只就够了 。。。人家说静狗咬死人 。。。 我可能使这种吧 。我从不乱发脾气 ，这点我自己很清楚 。
而且我这人很看得开 ，除了感情事外。别的事即使不开心，生气的话过两三天就会好了。这就是我 。我从不封杀任何人除了一个白痴 。

飞了

星期五

大肥飞的前一天大家很没精神。这是当然得啦
他一飞就要飞四年，一年回来一次而已
整晚没睡到 ，完全没精神 。。。
唉 ~~~~

星期六

气氛很怪的一天 ，全家人都很没有精神 。。。 大概是因为老大要飞了吧
今天很乖哦 ，整天窝在家里当乖孩子 （ 很难得的 ）
时间过得还真是快 ， 这样快就到一点半了
意味着什么呢？意味着要去机场了
感觉路好像变短了 。。。
到了那边没立刻上飞机，至少还需要等一个小时
到了，到了，我没哭哦 只是在老大走入机舱的时候有沙子飞入眼睛而已 。。 真的
整天，家里就是这样死气沉沉的，真的没办法继续呆在里边，提早跑了出来做工了
还是一句
唉 ~~~~

机会

最近，我就是控制不了我的情绪 。 以前的我不是酱的
我清楚知道以前的我真的不是酱的，但你就是不相信
被骂思想不成熟，被骂幼稚 。。。 可能对吧 。。。
很多事都事事不顺 ， 这就是人生 。。。
人非圣贤，孰能无过 。。。
只是这次还能挽回吗？
能在给一次机会再让我挽回吗 ？
就一次 。。。 做回自己的机会 。。。

飞了 ， 非了

情人节

还以为她真的会抽空来陪我度过，哪里知道还是没有
算了 ，每年还不是酱度过 。习惯就好，对吗？
只是今年的晚上在工作中度过 。。。
下午，就是一粒超大粒的电灯泡。阿正陪女友看电影。我呢？当然在旁边陪他看啦
真是好兄弟。。。靠！！！！
超烂的一部电影，是什么？当然不能说啦 。。。

星期六，‘ 大肥 ’ 就要飞去纽西兰了
hmmmm。。。。应该讲很不舍得吧一飞就飞四年。是人当然会不舍得拉
哎 。。。。
下星期，学校放假了。。。一个月
买了很多书来扫了
哈哈哈哈

为何非呢？我自己也不清楚
~ 女孩 ~ 能告诉我是‘非呢？’还是 ‘非也非也’
我真的很想知道 。。。

left 4 death

超棒的一个枪击游戏 ， 昨天和正正，辉，凌凌 等等。。。 玩到很疯 。一句话HIGH !!!!

也许

我问过你 ‘ 你有发觉到吗？我们之间的距离好像很远似的 ’
你说 ‘ 没有啦 ， ‘ 没有啦 ， 是你太敏感了 ’
是吗 ？ 虽然你是这样子说但我真的有发觉你我之间不再像以前那样了
可能 ，因为我们之间发生很多事吧 。。。
我常对自己说别想太多了啦 。。。 要走的终究要走 ，但我就是不舍得 。
讲得明些就是我不想失去 。 我已经失去很多了 ，我不想再失去了，尤其是你 。
短短的日子了 ， 我失去了很多东西 。。。 很痛 。
我很想再有这么的一次机会 ， 抱紧你的机会 。
可能，当时我真的不该在这么的一个时候说爱你 。。。
也许是我错了吧 。。。
我很想假装没事但我真的做不到 。。。
有谁能懂 ？有谁能告诉我，我应该怎么做 ？
你能给我这么的机会吗？

忧 。。。。

换学校对我来说不是好事却也不是坏事 。。。是新的开始却不是我所渴望的是好的开始却因而失去很多。。。原来现在我依然矛盾着我做的选择是对或错不过应该很好吧。。。在那一个月多了还是没有朋友说了也不相信对吧 。。。因为连我自己都不相信他们也不大喜欢我。。。所以嘛就每天自己一个人在那坐着 。。。应该说人大了定力也好了换作以前的我不发疯才怪 。。。没人在班上跟我‘射’来‘射’去真不舒服 。。。还好每星期都会回去‘射射一下’

新年真的发生很多事 。。。 不开心的开心的都有但不开心的比较多 。。。
一句话‘ 不开心 ’

一句 ‘我爱你 ’。。。（转载）

7歲的時候，我說我愛你。 你歪著腦袋，眨著水晶般的大眼睛，疑惑地問我：“什麼意思呀？



15歲的時候，我說我愛你， 你的臉紅得像火燒云，頭深深地低著，擺弄著衣襟，你好像在笑 。



20歲的時候，我說我愛你， 你把頭靠在我的肩上，緊緊地挽住我的手臂像是下一秒我就要消失一樣

25歲的時候，我說我愛你， 你把早餐放在桌上，跑過來刮了一下我的鼻子说:"知道了!懒虫,该起床了!"

30歲的時候，我說我愛你， 你笑著說：“你呀！要是真的愛我，就別下了班到處跑， 還有，別再忘了我叫你買的菜！”

40歲的時候，我說我愛你， 你邊收拾碗筷邊無表情的嘟囔著： “行了，行了，快去幫孩子複習功課去吧！”

50歲的時候，我說我愛你， 你打著毛線頭也不抬：“真的？ 你心裡是不是巴不得我早點兒死掉。”然後就咯咯咯地笑個不停。

70歲的時候，我們坐在搖椅上，戴著老花眼鏡， 欣賞著50年前我給你的情書，我們已經怖滿皺紋的手又握在了一起，那時侯我說我愛你，你深情地望著我,也说我爱你.

80歲的時候，你說你愛我。 我什麼也沒說，因為我流淚了，但是那是我人生最最快樂的日子， 因為你終於說出了那句“我—愛—你"

【 只想哭 】女孩

【 学会放弃 】
学会放弃
可能我们活得更轻松快了
学会放弃
在眼泪流下来的迅间转身离去留下简单的身影
学会放弃
将痛苦埋藏在心底留下彼此最美好的回忆...
这...
谁能真正的做到呢...
如果，我能回到从前我会
选择从不认识你
不是我后悔了
也不是我已不爱你了
是我不能面对
｜没有｜你的结局
你知道为什么吗？
分手后※不可以作朋友※因为彼此伤害过
※不可以作敌人※因为彼此深爱过
所以你我俩人
只能成为最熟悉的〖 陌生人 〗
『 ~*如果*~
如果青蛙没有变成王子
如果公主没有醒来
如果灰姑娘没穿上玻璃鞋
如果不是有你在我生命中出现
我还会相信有爱情的存在吗
相信有你在我身边
茫茫人海...
凭着你的名字导航
凄凄寒夜...
握着你的名字取暖
漫漫人生...
携着你的名字同游 』

『最后了』女孩

『最后了』女孩

白天黑夜还是独自一个人时
有没有一个人的身影
总会在不经意时偷偷突然自你的脑海里苏醒过来
如果真的有那么一个人的存在
那么你在你在记忆芳翻阅时
是悲伤亦或者是快乐的呢？
『晴天,想念你那甜蜜的微笑
下雨时，却想起自己悲伤的泪水
看得见你；看不见你或许对失去你的我而言
已经显得不再这么的重要了』

有的人
自某些东西消逝后仍会在自己心中占有小小的一席之地
关于你的
我将它放在心中晴空万里的一角
每当失意难过时总会不经意想起与你的回忆
温暖了思念你的我
『对我而言
想念一个人的心是美好却也是悲伤的
思念一个人的心情再看不见，听不到对方一言一行达到最高限度时，
思念的渴望就像心情指数从正一百跌至负一百般
实令人痛苦不已』

今天虽是阴雨绵绵的一天
雨正滴滴答答个不停
但此刻我的内心是愉快的
悲伤似乎也像暂时在冬眠中
而我无意惊扰它的休息
再说我爱你
我知道怎也留不住你
也知道再说我爱你
可能雨也不会因此而停止
『女孩，此刻。。。我正想念你』

『 想再一次抱你 』

『 想再一次抱你 』

坐在无人的角落我问了自己
我究竟喜欢那女孩哪一点
回忆像破碎了的泡沫形成无数的碎片
在我脑袋里不停落下。。。落下
我努力在它落下的瞬间
寻找我喜欢那女孩的理由
( 可惜，我找不到。
我想，一直以来我只是很单纯的喜欢她，爱她
越单纯，就越可贵，
因为。。。
当你真正爱上一个人时并不需要理由 )

这段一起走过的岁月
永远是心底
最甜蜜，最快乐的回忆
如果能许个愿
一个定能成真的心愿
我会用我全部的心许下
能与你再有牵手的那一天
( 告诉我 ，
我和你是不是会有明天？
时间的尽头，会不会还有你的思念？ )

喜欢坐在那儿想你
更喜欢在那样的日子念你
雨滴洒下的黄昏
将想你的心记于无形空气
写上淡淡的思念
写上深深的回忆
（ 孤零零的 ，
放我在全世界最寂寞的空间
呼吸这世界最孤单的空气 ，
你完全消失了，好像我们之间的 一切 都是假的
你不曾侵入我的世界，我们之间的一切都是我一个人的虚无想象的空白。
我爱她，我真的真的很爱她，
但她爱我的那一段到底存不存在？）

世上最永恒的幸福
就是平凡
人间最长久的拥有
就是珍惜
珍惜彼此相聚的时光
它将是永恒的回忆
（ 走过我们回忆的一切，
一样的空间，
一样的思念，
你的笑脸，无影
此刻的你。。。
女孩，你。。。到底在哪里？）

能不能让我再一次对你说我爱你
还是说这一切你一不想听
能不能彻底的把你忘记
到如今我真的还搞不清
（ 丝丝柔情的微笑
大发雷霆的怒脸
还有夜半无人。。。你的哭泣
一切都已回不来 ）

宁静夜晚，
我正等待着你来取回那时候 忘记了的微笑
在你曾经爱过我的日子里
我或许是世上最幸福的人
只是那些日子已经过去
如果我还有能力为你做一件事
那。。。便是等待
（ 原来，等待。。。到了终点，
只是一直以来我假装看不到。
我想再多傻一点点，欺骗自己你至少还会爱我一些些。。
。一切都还只是。。。无奈的结局 ）

一切都已不能回头。。。等待也是枉然

可以给我再爱你一次吗？

爱情，

对我来说

永远都不嫌多

我喜欢与你在文字里与你

谈●恋●爱

因为你

让我相信只要有你，即使没有明天我也愿意

常常，

我们无法履行自己的承诺，让对方伤心失望常常，我们会因为忙碌，忽略了的对方的感受

常常，

我们会迷失，不知道自己喜欢的是谁

常常，

我们需要对方在我们身边时，往往在身边的，都不会是她

常常，

我们一个人时不会孤单，想念一人时才会觉得孤单

常常，

我们会心猿意马，禁不起诱惑，捱不过考验

常常，

我们会认为自己给予对方的影响力会很大，反之，是对方影响力比较大

常常，

我们因为爱，我们很快乐，

常常，

因为爱，我们很开心

常常，

我们会为了让对方开心，宁愿让自己承受痛苦

常常，

我们无法一心一意，也无法要求对方一心一意

几乎，

我们是因为知道有爱，所以才感觉到幸福

几乎，

我们无法强逼喜欢的人，做些他们不喜欢的事

几乎，

我们无法规定真命天子在第一时间出现

几乎，

我们的爱情路上，不会简简单单没有伤害

几乎，

我们每人会因为自己的执着，让对方无法忍受

几乎，

我们在真正失去对方时，才知道对方存在的重要

几乎，

我们在每次吵架时，只会埋怨对方的不好，而没想过自己错在那里

几乎，

我们很想回到从前，回到那件事还没发生的那一刻

几乎，

我们也无法强制喜欢的人也得喜欢自己

到底谁该牵手谁该放手

让真正拥有的人留住，得到幸福的微笑

牵手或放手

抓住自己的幸福？

或来祝福自己所得到的爱情

一辈子在一起

一辈子不分开

一辈子只爱你和我

一辈子牵手永不放开

直到永远

我的世界里

就是因为有你的爱

女孩 。。。如果没有你的话

没有你怎么办？

我们永远都在期待着某天自己深深爱着的另一半能对自己说出这句话

『 对你说 』 ♡ 我最爱的女孩 ♥

『 对你说 』 ♡ 我最爱的女孩 ♥


我愿意

为你付出所有的

担心

甜蜜

呼吸


【 我愿意把我的肩借给你依靠永远永远只属于你 】


第一次笑的甜蜜

【 绝对的神奇 飞舞着的安琪儿 】

第一次牵你手的冷汗

【 飞舞着的安琪儿 偷偷捂着嘴巴发笑 】

第一拥抱的天空

【 环绕的空气 只属于你和我 】

第一个天真愿望

【 搂着你的腰 望着满天星 】

第一个诺言的世界

【 在我的天界里 只有你一个天使 】

分手；在一起的第100天

2008年8月10日

记得那是我最后一次见到她吧，那应该是我们分手后的前夕吧。。。看到她后，突然间，所有悲伤的感觉都涌上眼睛。我一直深深以为桐是我最熟知的人。结果，她就好像却是我从不相识的人。我了解她吗？她深爱着我吗？这一切一切，仿佛多么遥远。这么多日子以来，我爱着的是回忆里的桐吗？她是我在绝望边缘里出现的初恋，她是我第一个女孩，每一次，当他伤害我，我会用过去那些美好的回忆来原谅她。然而，在美的回忆也有用完的一天，到了最后，只剩下回忆残骸，一切都已变成了折磨。
也许，我的确是从不认识你。。。
‘喜欢和爱，到底有什么分别？’喜欢一个人是不会有痛苦的。爱一个人，才会有绵长的痛苦。可是，她给我的快乐，也是世上最大的快乐。。。
有时候，我常在想‘我们会不会是在做梦？’这是一个做么梦的星球。我们以为我们一直都醒着，其实这一切都只是一场梦。其实有谁知道现在的一切呢，是梦还是真实的呢？如果这是个做梦的星球，那么，说不定在天际的另一边有着另一边星球，住在上面的人却是醒着的，而他们也认为自己在做梦。如果真的是这样的话，我希望两边走。快乐的时候去醒着的那个星球。悲伤的时候，便走去做梦的那个星球。一觉醒来，原来一切都是梦。。。昨天，我遇见你了，不经意的走到了我熟悉的石椅上，一切如旧。这里有过我们的欢笑；可是，曾经有过的裂痕，是无法修补的吧？
我死心了，却又不甘心。她明明属于我的，为什么又会分开？为什么又会经不起考验？也许，她根本从来没有属于我，使我一霜情愿罢了。可是，为什么我还要见他呢？想听到什么话？想得到一个什么答案？是不甘心让她就这么走的吗？我明白了，错过的爱，通常是爱的错过。恋人最常犯的错是让爱失衡，有些人，因为太爱对方而失去了对方所有的一切，有些人，则因为太爱自己，而失去了对方，留下来的只有无奈的内疚。。。原来，我还无法放下你。。。和我们的这段爱情。。。
回忆是没得比较的。回忆里的味道，是无法重寻的。这话说的对，他到底有什么好呢？我为什么没法忘记他？原来，她是我回忆里的全部或许有人比他好。不过，她却是我唯一的初恋，是余生也无法重寻的哪里的天空比较蓝？每个时候，每种心情，每个人看到的，也许都不会同吧？

每次你靠在我的肩膀;

躺在我胸口，

那时候是。。。

你头顶的天空最蓝；

每次你伸手抚摸我的脸时。。。

那时候。。。

你的手最暖