new blog link

this will be the last blog I post in this link
cause I want to change link already
for those who got read my blog can get the new link for me
but I only will start my new blog after my final exam
and the worse thing is tomorrow is my final exam
so wish me luck lar :)
Nowaday I damn tired with my life now
TIRED!!!
who can help me release my stresses ?

ish ~

Honestly say I hate my life now

with no friend no plan

and everything also alone !!!alone !!!alone !!!

that is my life

how to have fun in a life with get ignore

misunderstanding,despise and ... ?

before you say I'm important for you then answer my first question

HOW WELL YOU KNOW ME ?

before you say you care about me then answer my second question

WHAT I NEED ACTUALLY ?

many of them failed to answer my question

I think not failed

Its just a bullshit answer they gave me

I admit I'm not a good , great friend

but at least I never backstab,never betray

if thing is not out of my abilities i can help

but if out of my ability

then i just can say sorry

even after I help you I noi need your thanks

cause I worse nothing from your thanks

so you can save it~that me

cause I help you or do anything for you

not because of your thanks

is because I really treat you as my friend ~ My best friend

For those who I do thing for her/him

i also no need thanks from you all

cause I treat you as my important friend

even I not really know you

but at least I can say

I KNOW YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW ME

For those who appriciate my thing then me d also save it

cause I no need people who just appriciate my thing more than me d

Brain wash

I trying to forget all the bad thing !!!
ish ~ but I failed
I think I nedd a brain wash
who can help me ?

Normal Life

nowaday , I feel bored of my life

wake up , school ,work then back

nothing special in my life

haiz ...when free ?

just lie on my bed listen to the song or study

ish ~

i don't want life like this !!!

breakfast alone ~

lunch alone ~

movie alone ~

tea also alone ~

what the fuck man !!!

everything alone

i think i better die if continue like that

the worse thing is

I started talk to myself when i really got nothing to do

sms to myself

talk to myself

ish ~~~

I'm crazy isn't ?

YES

obviously YES

life

what I can do now ?

everyone just ignore me like that ...

just feel like I totally don't have friend ...

ish ~ message him / her no reply

go to the class sit alone ~ what the hell ...

just fell like I totally don't have friend

haiz ~

fine , just report to myself

today , message to 2 person

both of them din't reply me

but in expected already

the most i love and care she hate me

and she ignore me for many days already

hmmm ~~~

the one had the sweetest memories before

also din't reply me

cause she hate me also

hmmm~~~

isn't i got to have this type of life untill I get old ?

untill I die ?

conversation

I din't sleep for 2 days . why ? because of the call
a guy who always call me every hour ~ ish ~
what the hell
at 12am when I was studying , he called me
J : hel ...hell .. hello .
me : hello :) who are you ?
J : i'm J ... are you still studing in disted college ?
me : ya , why ? anything I can help u ma ?
J : yes , can u study with me ? I study in PTPL
me : erm ~~~~ =.=''
J : sorry !!! sorry !!! sorry !!!
me : why say sorry to me ?
J : sorry , last time i don't know how to appreciate u as a friend
me : erm ~~~ is ok , I never care about it =.=''
J : sorry !!! sorry !!! sorry !!!
me : =.='' sorry J . I'm busy now . can we talk next time ?
J : okok , CN last time you look so handsome when u sit in front of me . you look so smart !!!
Me : ...... ( what the hell !!!)
at 1am when I want stop study , he called me again
J : sorry !!! sorry !!! sorry !!!
me : why you always say sorry to me ?
J : ( continue with his nonsense , sorry for cannot show here)
me : sorry J I still busy right now , an we talk tomorrow ?
at 2am something ~~~ when I was playing games
at 3am something ~~~ when I was still playing games
at 4am something ~~~ when I was watch movie
at 5am something ~~~ when I was in bed ready to sleep
at 6am something ~~~ when I was really really tired
until i switch off my handphone at 7am
oh my god !!!
at 7am I totally awake ald
what the hell J !!!
who order you to do this ?
faster say !!! who ? let me kill the bastard!!!

the way ~

the way for me to stop thinking about something is ~ working non-stop
yes , working non-stop is the best way to stop my brain to think about something
hmmm ... still trying ~~~ hehe
NS gathering ... so sad I cannot attend cause I rejected the invitation already :(
why ? cause of someone . someone who is really sweet with me last time
and ~ that also is one of the memory that i want to put it down and move on ~
My friend told me she said ' I want to go but I won't go if he got go also '
Hmm .. so what to do ? i just can said ' Sorry , i was busy on that day so I cannot make it ' :(
even I really want to go
If you ask me i still love her ? I will tell you NO . Serious NO and i also don't know why I will reject him ...
ai ~